Oh Well

It's early in the morning and I have yet to fall asleep. I feel like crap. I suppose it's just one of those days again.

Or maybe my yearly Christmas depression has kicked in a little earlier. *laughs*
You know how people usually ignore you throughout the year and when the Holiday Season begins, it's like you've been best friends your entire life? Maybe it's just me but it's overly annoying.

And majorly hypocricial, especially when it comes down to people you know for a fact can't stand your guts. Yeah, believe it or not -- there are people our there that don't like me!

Me! I'm the nicest person on the face of the planet and they don't like me!
Not that I mind. Since school I've been teased and rediculed because I think differently, because I dress differently, because I have a general different oppinion concerning a whole lot of things.
I don't need people to like me. Especially not by those people who claim to be something of a friend.

Seems they have a different definition of friendship than I do.

Isn't it strange? I'd rather "hang out" with my online friends than spend real life time with idiots from back home.

I can only stress the fact how glad I am that we moved.
If you want to become something more, if you want to grow in your life, you have to take a step. You have to a chance and use this chance for the better. You have to move upward to leave where you are.
It's sad how many people can't understand this. It really is.

Then there's New Year's Eve.
I've never been much of a party person. I hardly ever drink. Beer I find so disgusting that a single drop of the brew can make me vomit the entire night. If I do drink, I like the harder stuff. Tequila, Hennesey, Southern Comfort, various Alkopops as we Germans tend to say. A few Vodka mix drinks are okay, as well. I've tried a lot but I've never been drunk. Comes from the fact that I only try the stuff and never really drink it.

I think I'll stay home with my daughter this year. I didn't go out last year either, or the year before that. I'd be interested in going to our local castle and see what's going on up there but it supposed to be very crowded and dangerous, too. With fireworks going on, people don't pay attention.

So yeah, I'll stay home and work on my book that has yet to be written. I don't even have notes. Yay.
Great book, huh?!

I'll get it done, though. Once I finally have an idea that I want to stick with, once I've finally fallen in love with my own characters -- I'll get it done.

It's so much easier writing fanfiction. I write Star Wars fanfic mainly and my favorite character is Kyp Durron. I love this non-existing, sexy, yummy, hot Jedi Master so I adore writing about him. I can invent OC's like Nikk Vox and want him as my own for eternity! So how come it's so hard to create something completely new?

Pic of the Day:

It's my Desktop Pic. I love it. It's beautiful. Even though it's bloody but maybe that's the reason why I like it so much. Who knows?

My brain works in mysterious ways.